*Falling off the wagon*

Legend has it that there are occurrences in one’s life that leads them to fall off the wagon. I had heard of such things but never in a million years believed that I would be susceptible to it. (Injury, illness, marriage, divorce, babies, school, MOVING, etc.)
Several weeks ago, I mentioned to an acquaintance that my running was suffering. My family was preparing to move and I was under a ton of stress. I had recently been sick with a sinus infection and suffering from symptoms that I’m fairly certain are the result of adrenal fatigue. His response to my comment was “well, it just proves that you are human.”
Indeed.
Running has been such a huge part of my life for so many years. I never imagined that I’d find myself in the position in which the last thing I desired to do is run. Worse has been the reality I’ve faced; it has probably been really good for me.
Immediately after arriving in Southern California, our new home, I caught another head cold. The fifth cold I’ve had in less than 6 months. Transitioning into a new area, a new life if you will, creates its own challenges and with that, comes more stress. I’m either wired and on the edge of my seat or exhausted. Then wake up at 3 AM only to lay in bed for hours with my mind swirling with concerns about finances, uncertain about how to make the vision I have for my/our life in my head a reality, and worry about how my son will adapt and whether or not we are completely fucking up his life.
So now, about two weeks since my last run, which was a measly 2.75 miles, I understand the true meaning of falling off the wagon.
Despite my own consciousness about the situation and choosing to not run (although I’ve been hiking/walking here and there), the knife to the heart is seeing the hullabaloo over the upcoming Boston Marathon next week and the destructive self-comparison I find myself making to where I was a year ago versus now.
It’s not that I don’t want to run. I do! But I also feel that some time off is a good thing. I’m a firm believer in exercise for stress reduction. However, it has been my experience that placing a lot of pressure on one’s self (and I’m talking about me here), can create stress on the body. I’m electing to take one of the few things I can off of my plate for the moment to allow myself to adapt to my new environment and hopefully give my body a break. Because I’m certainly not done with running!

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If you want to change your life…

The upside, because there is always an upside, is that I’ve really enjoyed the hilly hikes I’ve taken. While I have yet to actually unroll my yoga mat, I’m feeling VERY drawn to reignite my yoga practice. I also find myself looking forward to more strength training and, don’t laugh, hula hooping. I’ve struggled with cross training the past few years so having a desire to be active outside of running is a refreshing feeling.
My final confession is this: last week this website domain was set to expire and I came very close to not renewing it. Given the circumstances, I didn’t feel worthy of owning a blog that has been, first and foremost, a running blog. Hours before it expired, I had a change of heart. I know that I would have been devastated at losing Wasn’t Just the Wine Talking as this space has given me my voice as a runner and writer. It has taken me a week to get the courage to write and post this because I’ve been feeling very critical of the situation. As always, though, I know that I’m not alone in my struggles and I find solace in knowing there are others out there that can identify with what I’m going through. For that, I’m so grateful.
While running might be on hiatus, I vow to find my way back to this space and continue to share my passion with anyone and everyone that is willing to listen.
xo

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*Weekly mileage ~ March 14-10*

Mileage for the week of March 14th – March 20th

Total weekly mileage: 15.5

Total March mileage (to-date): 52

Total year-to-date (2016) mileage: 296.5

Run review:

3/14           24:48 min./3 mi./8:15 pace

3/15           29:47 min./3.25 mi./9:10 pace

3/16           27:47 min./3.25 mi./8:51 pace

3/17          3 miles (1.3 w/Run Girl Run, 1.7 on my own)

318           No run

3/19          24:31 min./3 mi./8:11 pace

3/20          No run

This past week was much like the one before. Super busy with a side of adrenal fatigue. (Or, at least, that is what I believe I’ve been experiencing. Although I am no doctor and my diagnostic credentials are primarily based on my studies at the University of Google.) I will note that I am starting to feel a touch better this week and grateful BIG TIME. We are down to the wire and moving day is approaching fast!

I don’t doubt that this week will prove to be just as challenging and already anticipate missing much of the upcoming weekend since those will be travel days. There is a steady flow of personal reminders that I’m doing the best that I can under the circumstances and during a recent conversation with an acquaintance about my slacking mileage, the response was “well, you are human.” Huh. That’s right. I am.

It does pain me a little to see people training for spring races, especially the Boston Marathon, but I know that once the dust settles, I’ll have a whole new town to run in and new running friends to find. Lots of adventures are on the horizon!

Happy Spring!

*Weekly mileage ~ March 7-13*

Mileage for the week of March 7th – March 13th

Total weekly mileage: 18

Total March mileage (to-date): 36.5

Total year-to-date (2016) mileage: 281

Run review:

3/7           33:31 min./4 mi./8:23 pace

3/8           36:59 min./4.5 mi./8:13 pace

3/9           No run/X trained

3/10         28:53 min./3.25 mi./8:53 pace

311          29:16 min./3.25 mi./8:59 pace

3/12         No run/rest day

3/13         26:56 min./3 mi./8:59 pace

Be gentle with yourself. You are doing just fine.

This is my mantra for the week. When I need a kind reminder that I’m okay, that I’m not falling apart, and that it is okay to be gentle, I refer to this saying. I’ve had moments when I’ve felt like I’m on a downward spiral. There are so many great things happening behind the scenes (none of which are currently running related) but in the midst of it all, my health has taken a hit and I’m working to bring my body back in balance.

Why is it that when you have the longest to-do list and a plate so full it’s overflowing with (mostly) goodness, your health begins to slide? Therein lies the answer, right?

Last summer I was very much in the same state (you can read about it HERE) and ended up taking more than a week off. This time around, I’m backing off instead of taking a break. It is what my body has been telling me it needs. So I’m cutting back both mileage and effort. Opting for a little something most days because I believe I need to move and sweat.

Beyond the running, my posting here has taken a hard hit too. In part because I have little that is running-related to write about. Also, because I am so busy that I can hardly see straight. I know that’s not good for me either and contributing to feeling crappy, so when given the option to write a quick post or hit the hay, I’ve elected to hit the hay!

The next several weeks will be much the same I suspect but please don’t stop checking back from time to time. I’m hopeful that as the dust starts to settle in a few weeks, I can resume both a consistent training schedule and regular blog posts.

 

 

*Fuel Friday ~ Baked Apple Oatmeal*

For the second week in a row, I’ve been plagued by some sort of illness or ailment. Last week it was a pinched nerve in my shoulder (which is still giving me some grief). This week, food poisoning.

I’ve mentioned a few times that I was really excited to hear ultrarunner Krissy Moehl speak on behalf of her new book, Running Your First Ultra, this past Wednesday. Mr. Wasn’t Just the Wine Talking and I made an afternoon/evening of it and ran some errands in the city before the event, including a stop at a well-known Mexican restaurant for a little happy hour treat.

The fish taco was a bad choice.

Not long after Krissy began her presentation, I began feeling ill. It progressively got worse and I turned to my husband and whispered that I wasn’t feeling well (hot, sweaty, faint, nauseous) and had to leave, asap. I needed some air! So we quietly got up and left before she finished. Without getting my darn book signed!

The ride home, the rest of the night, and all day yesterday were pretty unpleasant, to say the least. And, it’s my third bout of food poisoning in 7 months! WTH? (My Mister didn’t have a taco, fortunately.)

So you’re probably wondering why I’m writing about food poisoning on a Fuel Friday post, right?

Well, because I feel a ton better today but I’m still feeling really depleted and low on energy. I’m carefully bringing solids back into my diet because I need to get some nutrients into my body. I whipped up a delicious late breakfast this morning that I thought I’d share.

Baked Apple Oatmeal

Ingredients:

1 serving (1/2 cup oats) oatmeal, cooked

1/2 an apple

1 egg

1/4 tsp. vanilla

1/2 tbsp. maple syrup

Cinnamon to taste

Cooking spray

Directions:

Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Cook the oatmeal and set aside. Chop the apple into small, uniform-sized pieces. In a mixing bowl, combine all the other ingredients then stir in the cooked oatmeal and apple. Transfer the mixture into a baking dish coated with cooking spray, top with a little additional cinnamon (optional), and cover with a lid or foil. Bake for 40-45 minutes.

I added another little drizzle of maple syrup and a dollop of almond butter to mine. Such a treat!

Baked Apple Oatmeal

Baked Apple Oatmeal

Have a happy (Fuel) Friday!!

*A look back at 2015*

Holy shit.

Pardon my French. But seriously, guys. It has been an incredible, wild, messy, fun, year. Like, holy shit! Let’s do it again but with more incredible, wild, messy, fun, adventure!!!

My hope for you, as you look back at your own year, is that you feel the same way. And that, like me, you are ready to make more epic magic awesomeness happen in 2016.

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If you’ve missed my monthly highlights over the past year, you can read them individually at the links below.

November

October

September

August

July

June

May

April

March

February

January

As for December, well, I figured I’d just include my stats and a few highlights here!

December review:

Total miles: 128.25

Longest run: 8

Total days running: 28

YTD mileage: 1,868.25

Some of my favorite December moments included:

  • Finishing a small 5k as the first-place female finisher.
  • Celebrating the season with family and friends at several gatherings sprinkled throughout the month.
  • Watching my little drummer boy perform at his winter band concert.
  • Seeing my soldier for the first time in five months when she arrived home for the holidays. We made a scene in the airport. I cried. And hugged her a ton. Probably one of my favorite memories of the whole entire year!!
  • Feeling content finally being under the same roof with Mr. Wasn’t Just the Wine Talking and our kids after 147 days of being spread out across the country.
  • Waking up to snow!
  • Spending time with my parents, bother, sis-in-law, nephew, and my own family in the mountains for a few days for an early Christmas.
  • Receiving some really great Christmas gifts including a new sleeping bag that I cannot wait to test out on a near-future adventure!
  • Planning for 2016. Lot’s of big stuff on the horizon… running goals, business goals, family/life goals… I have so much to be grateful for this past year and so much to look forward to next year!

Last but not least, THANK YOU! for being a part of my year and sharing in the triumphs and struggles. My life is so enriched by the online community that has been created based on our common love of running, health, and wellness.

I wish you all a fantastic 2016 filled with lots of love, good health, adventures, and of course, happy miles! Cheers!

*Weekly mileage ~ Nov. 23-29*

Mileage for the week of November 23rd – November 29th

Total weekly mileage: 15.5

Total November mileage (to-date): 119.5

Total year-to-date (2015) mileage: 1,737.75

Run review:

11/23           8:24 min./1 mi./8:25 pace

11/24          35:06 min./4 mi./8:47 pace

11/25          41:25 min./5 mi./8:17 pace

11/26          29:38 min./3.5 mi./8:28 pace

11/27         17:02 min./2 mi./8:31 pace

11/28         No run/travel (and getting sick)

11/29         No run/sick

And then weeks like this happen.

I knew from the start that last week was going to throw me for a loop. I did the best I could given the challenges of the week including getting sick over the weekend. The biggest bummer was that I cut my November running streak short. I still ran 30 consecutive days, spanning from October 29th through November 28th, so I’m happy about that but ultimately missed my goal by just two days.

Oh well.

I’m still sick and feeling really crappy but I did attempt a short, easy run this afternoon. I didn’t cough up a lung so that was pretty cool. I’ve been working some holistic wellness magic in hopes that I’ll feel better by the weekend since I’ve got a race on Saturday. Just a small, home-town 5k, but one in which I’d really like to kick some ass at!

If you’re curious about my wellness protocol, basically it’s Bourbon. Lots of Bourbon.

Kidding. (Sort of.)

There are a few go-to products that I incorporate at the onset of a cold and continue to use until the symptoms subside. They include:

  • Astragalus tincture in water or tea. (To support healthy immune function.)
  • Source Naturals Wellness Formula (I actually take one a day during the colder months.)
  • Hot cocoa-like tonics made with Ashwaganda. (To help strengthen my immune system.)
  • The cold/wet sock remedy (There is a link in THIS previous post.)
  • Miso soup with lots of garlic, ginger, cilantro, onions, and Astragalus root (because I have it on hand).
  • Emergen-C.
  • Elderberry syrup by Honey Gardens.
  • Lots of tea.
  • Rest and staying warm.
  • Eucalyptus and peppermint essential oil in the shower.
  • Aura Cacia First Response Mist.
  • Bourbon. (I want to make sure all the bases are covered!)
Bulleit Bourbon Frontier Whiskey 1.75l

I prefer Bulleit. ; )

My fingers are crossed that it works and I’m feeling a ton better within a few more days!

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and celebrated the abundance in your lives with your loves! Get ready to jump into a festive month ahead! Cheers!

*Weekly mileage ~ Oct. 19-25*

Mileage for the week of October 19th – October 25th

Total weekly mileage: 17.25

Total October mileage (to-date): 87

XC mileage (part of weekly total): 1.75

Total year-to-date (2015) mileage: 1,604.25

Run review:

10/19           26:26 min./2.5 mi./10:35 pace      + .5 miles w/XC

10/20           33:57 min./4 mi./8:29 pace

10/21          18:22 min./2.53 mi./7:16 pace      + 1.25 miles (warm up/cool down)

10/22           No run

10/23          44:34 min./5.25 mi./8:28 pace     + 1.25 miles w/XC

10/24         No run

10/25         No run

My weekly mileage review from last week pretty much sums up my week. BUSY! Cross-country is officially over but not before three final meets sprinkled throughout the week. Our final one of the season was this past Sunday in which I got so wet and cold, it took me a day and a half to recover. After a skipped run yesterday, a mid-afternoon nap, miso soup, the wet sock remedy, various vitamins and minerals, and an extra early bedtime, I woke up feeling a ton better today. It’s just been one of those weeks.

Last week I shared a mini race recap about the 4k I ran on Wednesday. A couple of days later I came across my finish line photo. For laughs:

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Pain face at the finish.